I had such a nice group of students today! They actually listened, and they were just very well-behaved.
Then, I had a group of adults. So...yeah. I had to tell them that if I saw anyone touching a rope (of one of the bells) again, I'd send them downstairs without an argument.

Dude. Seriously.

and one more to go.

I had my test on Greek mythology yesterday, and I scored 70%! I'm really really really relieved. I studied very hard for that test, but I was so glad it were only MC questions. Seriously, it was like...all names. I know that the official course name is Who's Who in Greek Mythology, but still...I can't remember all those names O_o They're all alike.

Anyway, I passed! Yay!

Monday is my last exam. It's going to be a hard one. It's about theories on literature and...stuff. Haha, I don't know how to explain. I scored a 7,5 for my essay on Wide Sargasso Sea though, which is good. I think it was worth 30%, and the exam is 60%. The other 10% was handing in your assignments, and I did that, so that's good as well.

Ugh.
I don't want to go to work today. On the bright side, it's only 3 hours.

I wish my neighbours would move. The ones that live in the appartment below my room. The ones that smoke. With the door open. So my room smells like smoke.

It's disgusting.

And people should not be allowed to let their alarm clock beep for longer than a few seconds. Trust me, it'll drive anyone that can hear yours crazy if you don't turn it off instantly. Especially if you leave it beeping for over an hour.

Ugh.
I have so much homework ><

and I don't want to go outside, but I have to.

Well, later today. That sucks, because my roommate still has my umbrella I think. And she's not here.

Oh well.

I pretty much finished my essay though! W00T!

A tiny update.

This Friday I have a test on HTML webdesign. It's no big deal, but I decided to go to school this morning to read it through anyway. And practise a bit. It wasn't too bad. Adrienne tough me a lot in Japan, because she'd be working on her site and I'd just be watching, haha.

Yeah.

I'm really behind with school, so I made a killer-schedule this weekend and I hope I'll be able to catch this week. I think I might! My essay is my biggest worry, of course. As it is every single period. It's not going too bad now though, yay.

Also, I decided to get my eyes checked because I actually do have trouble reading stuff in class and sometimes subtitles are hard to read, too. Haha, last week, it said "lui" somewhere, meaning lazy, and I read "lul", meaning dick. I was like "what?!"
So, yesterday I got my eyes checked, and they said it'd be smart to take glasses. I thought about it, went back  to the store today, and I should have them by the 31st. It's so weird. Me in glasses O_o Really, glasses are cool, and on some guys they're so hot cute. But on me...they look weird. Anyway, the frame is blue, but it doesn't go underneath the glasses. I don't know how to explain, haha! Something like this (but way cooler of course):

Yeah, it's not really a good picture. Oh well. Usually, the price would be €145.- and my health insurance won't cover it, but I got sunglasses with it for €150.- in total. Which is sweet, because they have a really nice frame and this way the only cost €5.-! They're pink or red or whatever that colour is (I thought it was pinkish purple or something). I really like the colour, but the (really nice) man that was helping me in the store said I'd better take blue because it's easier to wear with...whatever. Anyway, I do hope I'll be wearing them a lot. You know, so it's worth the money and all that. I'm so Dutch when I say stuff like that. It's almost disgusting.

Okay.
that was my not-so-tiny update.

I've got to go back to my essay! I can't wait till it's finished, so I won't have to spend so much time behind the computer. (my arm is actually hurting O_O)

The I AM Canadian add was in my text book, in the chapter on Canadian culture. It made me laugh. Out loud. In class.

Not so funny, is being totally and completely ignored.
Except for when there's something you disagree on.

At least I'm not the only one who notices it, so I know it's not all in my head.  

My bike broke. One of the pedals fell off. O_o I don't know how to get to school tomorrow.

I just feel so shitty lately.

Not all the time, but especially in the afternoon and at night. The mornings are best I guess. I'm kind of behind with my schoolwork. I mean...I make sure I hand everything in on time, but I AM behind. Especially with my essay. It bothers me because it's on my mind all the time but every time I sit down to work on it, I'm just too distracted. Or I can't find any good sources, or something else comes up.

I know I tell people just about everything, and now they all have an opinion about what I should do and I don't agree really. It's my own fault for not being able to say what I really think though. Please don't think I feel like no one understands me, because that's definitely not true.  
It's still winter, and I want it to be spring. I usually feel like this around this time. We have stormy weather today and I love stormy weather but I feel like I can't go out and should study. My grandmother celebrates her birthday tonight and I don't want to go but I promised I would. I don't think I'll stay too long. I can go there with my parents, but I might just go back by train after an hour or so. I don't want to be there and pretend nothings going on even though there still all this drama in the family. 

Why can't people just get along?
Or TALK. Just TALK about stuff that bothers you. It helps. No wait, people should talk to each other. Don't only state your opinion and then completely disagree with what another says without actually listening.

I have a lot of inspiration lately though. I mean I write a lot. That's good I guess. I wrote quite a lot of poems -I never used to do that, but I really like it now. I think only 1 out of 10 is any good, but I still enjoy writing them. I don't do rhyme though, haha.

I only know boys right now I just want to be friends with. But I really really want to cuddle. O_o
See? I just feel shitty. For no reason whatsoever.

I love listening to my music. I have all this new music by Emilie Simon, and I'm still completely in love with my Kate Nash CD. Heather Nova makes me cry sometimes, but I love how I have her album Siren since I was sixteen, and listening to it brings back really good memories. And scents, too. I always remember tiny details, and feelings. Especially feelings, colours and scents. Having a good memory is nice though.

We were talking about what we wanted to do when we were sixteen a week or so ago. I always wanted to write stories and make illustrations for them.
Whatever made me study Japanese and not do something with art? Don't get me wrong, I don't regret studying Japanese. It's such a nice language, and I learned so much from living, studying and working in Japan. And I met one of my best friends there, so I really don't regret it. It's just...I don't know, I was only wondering. "I don't know" really seems to be my favourite phrase lately.

Yesterday night, we went out. Or...we were going to go out. There were three of us, but the moment I got there I wanted to leave. I stayed for a bit, then bailed. I don't know what happened, but I felt so ill at ease. Having a really bad headache didn't help --but I've had a headache all week. It's because my neck and shoulders are really stiff, even though I do the exercises I got!

I don't feel stressed out though.

Just a bit shitty. Sorry for writing such a long post and being all emo. O_o

Ah, I think it feels like a drama, because someone is making it a drama.

Really. It's not a big deal. Don't blow it up.

It really isn't a drama. I know it's not.

So why does it feel like one?

So.

For my exam essay...I chose this assignment:

Find a reliable source defining the concept of “dramatic irony.” Then apply the term to Brief Interviews with Hideous Men. Find examples of dramatic irony in this text and explain how it influences your interpretation.

But I can't really find it O_o Dude, I suck!
It such a shame we never discussed this text in class, because that would have helped a lot. I think.

Oh, essay writing.